Racing in F1 Seeking Angels: A Solo Journey of an Artistic Girl Across Europe

Author: Tong Yan
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Publish Date: 2005-02-01
Features: Seeking angels is better said than seeking the meaning of life. Back then, although I had lost interest in life, I still had some curiosity. I tried to live freely and open-mindedly, trying to fully embrace everything that could evoke a sense of life's beauty. New places and new people, constantly changing or even overturning my usual concepts kept me focused, like driving an F1 car, always in a state of tension and excitement. Although it was exhausting, at least it helped me forget the sadness of reality. I had already decided to become a hedonist, and so much suffering was just because of youth. My story began in Germany, a place that produced Hegel and Nietzsche. I am grateful to that philosophical city for letting me experience the boredom of life and understand the helplessness of living for the moment. Then I wandered aimlessly across Europe, with no purpose, only remembering that it lasted for a year and covered over a dozen countries, before realizing that meaning is something you can't find. Curiosity is never fully satisfied. My inherent pessimism never changed, and Inded up becoming an indifferent, selfish person, just like I am now. It can still be called kindness, but I never harm others for my own gain.