In this life: My emotional journey

Author: Hu Lancheng
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Publish Date: 2003-09-01
Features: Due to Eileen Chang, the world has once again revisited Hu Lancheng. In reality, this man's talent was no less than that of the talented Ms. Chang, yet he remained silent and suppressed by the times until now. This Life, This World was finally officially published in mainland China. A man, with his delicate and graceful pen, slowly recalled his long life, starting from the memories of his hometown. It was a picturesque Jiangnan town with blooming peach blossoms, lush mulberry trees by the paths, lively theatrical performances, and dazzling floral displays during the New Year celebrations. There was also the lingering affection of traditional weddings. Yet once he left, he never returned home throughout his life. "I was not only a wayward man to my hometown but also to the years." Meeting Modern Women Eileen Chang was merely a non-deepening episode in his life, but for her, she believed she had found the only soulmate who cherished and pitied her in this life. However, it turned out to be just a misunderstanding, and the wayward man drifted further into distant foreign lands.
The turbulence of his later life was driven by the times. The Hu Lancheng more known to the world was always inseparable from the label of "traitor." In truth, at the end of the day, he was just a pure scholar. Eileen Chang and I were like this too. In this world, mountains never grow weary of being high, and the sea never tires of being deep. High mountains and vast seas are almost unsuitable for romantic affairs. Neither of us had ever thought of getting married. But Yingdi divorced me, and only then did we marry. That year, I was 38, and she was 23. To avoid her being dragged down by future political changes, I did not hold a ceremony and simply wrote a marriage contract to formalize it. Though we were married, it was as if we had never truly been. I refused to let her life change in any way because of me. No matter how we tried, we never acted like a married couple, yet one remained a golden child, and the other a jade maiden.