I can be bad, but you must be pure

Author: Fan Qing
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Publish Date: 2003-05-01
Features: The Awkwardness of a Beauty Born in the Late 1970s
Children born in the late 1970s faced the clash of traditional and new moral values before and after the reform wave. Especially for girls like "Ant" in the 1970s, they hovered between tradition and rebellion, conservatism and avant-garde. After an unhappy first love, they struggled to maintain a sliver of innocence in a materialistic society. They were fragile, and their dual longing for material and spiritual fulfillment made them unable to resist the temptation of a married man. Faced with emotions and morality, the other person's family and condemnation, they struggled in emotional conflicts. Their strong self-esteem refused to let them resign themselves to the role of a mistress, while their hidden kindness forbade them from destroying others' families. Those unspoken feelings had no one to confide in. In real life, such girls might be your sisters or friends, their inner pain hidden behind a seemingly innocent and sweet smile.
The protagonist is named "Ant." After several failed relationships, she transformed from an innocent and naive girl into one who indulged in debauchery. Yet, Ant still had something within her, causing her to repeatedly waver between love and hate. Facing a new tomorrow, she felt lost yet full of hope.