On the edge of love and pain

Author: Guo Jingming
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Publish Date: 2004-08-01
Features: I love it, standing on a cliff, watching the luxurious and bright youth lying at my feet, tears streaming down my face. Youth is a bright sorrow. I have always been a complex child, many people say it's hard to understand me. I smile at them, I am a person who often smiles, but I am not always happy. Often when I feel sad, tears haven't even had time to rise, a smile has already crept up to the corners of my eyes and brows. I only get angry with the people I like, but I smile at those I dislike. Until one day I discovered the joy of writing, so I started writing endlessly. Like chasing black happiness with my eyes closed. My friends say I am truly lonely when I write, my eyes are filled with flickering colors, and my posture is a perfect defense. In fact, I am truly lonely when I look up at the sky, but I always look at the sky when I am alone. As that writer said; You will never see me love you, because I only love you when I can't see you. Similarly, you will never see me be lonely, because I am only lonely when you can't see me.
The author traces back to the moment he entered this world, trying to analyze the internal driving forces behind the growth of his personality and the changes in his spiritual pursuits. The author is a sorrowful child, a contradictory child, a child with a distinct personality, yearning for an independent and free life, but also a child with a strong sense of reality. He despises the oppressive and dull life at school, but he also understands that the only way to prove himself now is through the college entrance examination; he explores and yearns for the rich spiritual world of writers, but at the same time, he has no hidden desire and dream for the secular money and material. All of these are vividly reflected in the work. The book is divided into two parts, "Bright Days" and "Unending Dark Nights," and it is clear from this that the inherent brightness and darkness in the author's youth.