Gogo's Night - Emotional Notes of a Drifting Girl

Author: Qi Aqi
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Publish Date: 2006-08-01
Features: In the hallway, on campus, in the dining hall, in every unexpected encounter, as soon as he appeared, whether it was in front of or around Yingzi, or even where Yingzi couldn't see him, she could instinctively sense the information coming from him. Yingzi would then pause, fix her gaze, and stand still for a moment before resuming what she was doing as if she had come back to life. Yingzi had once been extremely annoyed. She saw him as if he were a cloud, always flipping and turning effortlessly, completely unfazed while busy with his own affairs, which made her feel a bit unfair. She playfully listed his daily routine and the times he usually appeared somewhere in a letter. Sure enough, after receiving the letter, he seemed distracted for a few days, always staring at the girls coming and going, trying to catch the mischievous expression of Chenpi Mei. When his eyes passed over Yingzi, she would flash a wide-eyed, innocent smile or simply turn away with indifference, giving him only a vague back. But finally, Yingzi couldn’t hold back any longer. Because she noticed he was secretly in love. He was in love, and the object of his affection was not Chenpi Mei, with whom he had been corresponding for three years and had grown deeply familiar. Yingzi fell into a despairing abyss as if the sky had fallen and the earth had cracked, unable to pull herself out. That day, Yingzi just wanted to quietly watch him from nearby and say a few casual words as usual, so she arrived early at the small hill behind the university campus to sit and wait. She feignedly held an English book in her hands. According to Yingzi’s information, he would definitely go for a half-hour walk on the back hill after dinner today, whether alone or with someone, but he would definitely come. Sure enough, he appeared slowly at the foot of the hill. At first, Yingzi didn’t notice the girl beside him, so close to him. That was Yingzi’s oversight. But this oversight stemmed from the arrogance and boldness of a girl. Yingzi thought that since he could correspond so devotedly and passionately with Chenpi Mei, one day he would come to her with a stack of letters she had written to him, tell her that he had loved her since the very beginning and had always loved her. Just like Yingzi had always loved him. He might even say, "I knew Chenpi Mei was you all along. I just didn’t want to reveal it." Because he thought it was good to leave some space between two people. Besides, in the same campus, knowing who the other person was but never acknowledging it—how romantic and thrilling that was! It was as if it were even more Platonic than Plato himself. Moreover, with so many books to read and so many things to do, he was the head of the student union, naturally busier than most. Yingzi had imagined countless times what their meeting would be like. She thought it would be a moonlit night when he came before her, and she would be dizzy with excitement. He would come and hold her in his arms, embracing her tightly. They would kiss, and keep kissing, forever and ever. Yingzi hid in a bamboo forest, watching every step he took. He was climbing the hill, walking, getting closer step by step, inch by inch. Suddenly, she couldn’t believe her own eyes. She saw that his hands were not