First time you made me so moved

Author: Xiao Xiao
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Publish Date: 2006-08-01
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A few yellow leaves drift down from the gray sky, quietly, gently, and peacefully falling asleep on the familiar and kind earth. The autumn sky always gives one a shiver. A cool breeze sweeps past, carrying a bone-chilling chill mixed with the refreshing scent of earth. The sleeping leaves suddenly stir in the wind's embrace, swaying gently.
On the street, pedestrians gather in small groups, looking from one end to the other. Except for the, there's nothing else. It seems there are only heads, and nothing more! I walk forward with hurried steps, as if being chased. Around my neck hangs a borrowed "Love Me Stupid (MP3)," swaying left and right. I don't know if it's the "end of the world" or if I just crave being online. In any case, it's more impatient than I am. The "noise" from the earphones in my ears makes even the street taxis dare not approach, let alone the people around me. Their minds are always racing: Why is this happening? Why is that happening? If it weren't like this, what would happen? If it weren't like that, what else could be done? Even now, I can't even figure out what "this" or "that" really are. I weep for flowers and sigh at the moon without understanding why! It seems I'm an eccentric "great person" who's not financially well-off and even repels those around me. I'm not even half as worried as Lin Daiyu from Dream of the Red Chamber. Unfortunately, I'm a man—a true boy, or perhaps a man. After "thousands of years" of time, I've finally returned home, not even willing to change my shoes. Like a tiger spotting its prey, I rush to the computer. To be honest, I have two hobbies and one obsession: reading and chatting online. I'm also incredibly curious. I once made a vivid comparison: If I couldn't eat or drink, I'd be happy. If I couldn't go online or read, even if I were torn to pieces, I wouldn't care. I'm interested in everything and curious about everything. This is me—a person as ordinary as can be, as calm as can be.
I don't know what day it is today, making me so "excited" that I even mistype my QQ password. If I hadn't calmed down and re-entered it, I might have jumped off the fifth-floor building. "Oh my god! What day is it today?" I flipped through the desk calendar from front to back. "Strange! It's not a special day, but why isn't there a single person above me? Did they all die without a word?" It seems that's true! Today is indeed a special day—not far from the "end of the world" I mentioned.
Standing in front of the high-tech information product—the computer—I gaze at the sky-blue screen yet feel its gentleness. "Oh! I just realized today..."