Saint girl

Author: Shalov (Шаров)
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Publish Date: 2003-07-01
Features: Stalin soon noticed her actions and approved of them, but he never mentioned her by name. For a while, he remained silent, pretending not to see or notice anything, and Vera even felt afraid, unsure if he would approve of her actions if they became public. Despite this worry, she did not stop. After Aliluyeva, she gradually expanded her targets, incorporating everyone around Stalin into her lobbying efforts within half a year, even those who still called him "Koba." Although they, like Nadya, did not immediately accept it, they began to understand that Stalin was divine and grew more convinced over time. Eventually, even the most talented people started to promote and confirm this. As I have said, Stalin remained indifferent and did not interfere, offering no guidance to Vera. But she was very tactful and clever, and she was content with no interference. Vera felt particularly good at the time, except for one thing that saddened her: her relationship with Lena suddenly worsened. Lena had loved Stalin for a long time and had had a few opportunities to be alone with him, but she never became his steady girlfriend. Although he was attracted to women like her—full-figured, proportionate, with small, toy-like feet—perhaps what annoyed Stalin was that she was married, and he had to share her. But Vera learned from Lena herself that Lena did not love Yosif and would divorce him immediately if Stalin asked. Perhaps it was his dislike for her possessiveness, as if she considered him her exclusive one. But more likely, he was simply tired of having her record his orders and instructions for hours on end. Before going to Bashkortostan, Vera knew that Lena could sometimes be too assertive and blunt, especially when she felt close to her goal. Vera sympathized with her and tried to warn her. In recent months, the ballerinas had become increasingly prominent at the parties, and several of them were particularly favored by Stalin, who repeatedly requested their presence. Lena suddenly wanted to limit this, of course, and no one was satisfied with her actions. Stalin was genuinely surprised. He highly appreciated Lena's work and her loyalty, but when she refused to back down, he had Yanukizhev to deal with her. Lena's final outcome was that she was no longer invited to Kuncev. After about two months, thanks to Vera's intercession, Lena was finally forgiven. She dared not lecture Stalin again, nearly losing her sanity out of fear of being permanently excluded from his circle and losing him forever. During these two months, everything related to her was distorted in her mind, and now she believed Vera to be her rival. She convinced herself that Vera, whom she had once helped and saved, had betrayed her. She made no attempt to hide her feelings about Vera, but despite her sympathy for Lena, Vera knew she couldn’t explain herself. Although Vera had done nothing wrong in front of Lena, Lena still refused to let it go and was eager to act. She grew to like and appreciate Vera more, finding her too captivating. Now she often thought that Vera was the only woman worthy of him. By nature, he was a family-oriented man, and since meeting the ballerinas, the women and those little girls vying for his attention had begun to bore him. He longed for peace and stability, and above all, a stable relationship. In recent weeks, he thought that no one was more suitable for him than Vera. He made several resolutions to talk to Vera, but for various reasons, he kept postponing it. Until one day, after the dances and banquet were over, the music stopped, and the Kuncev hall was left empty, with only the two of them inside. At first, they chatted casually, talking about his children and Aliluyeva, but suddenly fell silent as if afraid of something. They stood facing each other, and then he held her, embracing her. She seemed to want him too, leaning against him obediently, but it was only a momentary weakness. Vera was very perceptive and had always been unusually clever. When Stalin believed everything was going well and felt at ease, because he was still afraid she might refuse him, he now believed she wouldn’t, Vera suddenly, with excitement that baffled and amazed him, began to tell him herself that he was divine. She did not avoid him or push him away but tilted her head slightly back and whispered, “You are the true god, the real god. Don’t think I’m telling this to others because I think they should know. No, I told everyone: Nadya, Ordzhonikidze, and Yanukizhev, because it’s the truth, pure truth.” She was so excited and certain that he suddenly felt, if she was right and he truly was god, how could he possibly know how to act in front of her? He couldn’t disbelieve her, but if he believed, he grew afraid, unsure how a god should be with an ordinary woman. He had never been alone with a woman since becoming a god. Now he worried: if this woman knew so clearly that he was god, she must know it too, and he didn’t. He would surely lose face. He let her go.
① Soviet state and party activities. In 1920, he was the chairman of the Caucasus Bureau of the Central Committee of the RCP(b) and the secretary of the Transcaucasian Krai Committee. From 1924 to 1927, he was a member of the Military Revolutionary Committee of the USSR. From 1926, he was the chairman of the Central Committee of the Communist Party of the Soviet Union and the People's Commissar of the People's Commissariat forIndustry and Trade, and the deputy chairman of the Council of People's Commissars and the Council of Labor and Defense. From 1930, he was the chairman of the Supreme Economic Council and a member of the Politburo. A member of the All-Union Central Executive Committee and the Central Executive Committee of the USSR. After that night, Vera’s relationship with Stalin remained unchanged, and everything returned to the way it was before, which seemed to suit both of them. Although Vera had done nothing wrong, she believed someone would surely tell Aliluyeva and Lena about her meeting with Stalin. A week later, Lena and then Nadya asked her for an explanation, but she sorrowfully realized she couldn’t explain herself this time. The conversation with Nadya wasn’t too difficult; she liked Vera and pitied her, always saying that if what had happened to Vera in Bashkortostan had happened to her, she would have died long ago. But the conversation with Lena was terrible—it was the worst conversation of her life. Unprecedented and unparalleled. After listening to Vera, Lena completely misunderstood her. She thought that Stalin and Vera’s relationship was only temporary and would happen sooner or later, not tomorrow or the day after. Lena made it clear: she should immediately and forever get rid of Vera, as no rival was more dangerous. When Vera and Lena were still studying at the teacher training course, Lena noticed that Yosif liked Vera, and Vera seemed to return the favor, but she never thought of giving Yosif to Vera. During the year and a half Vera spent in Bashkortostan, Lena and Berg lived a happy life. She even secretly believed she couldn’t find a better person than him, it was time to mature and have children, but she immediately realized she couldn’t live without Stalin. For a while, she tried to balance both, but she gradually realized that if she truly wanted to attract Stalin, she should only be with him, day and night, exclusively. Berg was very generous and easily trusting, making it easy to deceive him, but these deceptions, mostly due to his kindness and innocence, left her helpless. He himself was also increasingly beyond her control. Now she suddenly thought, if Vera hadn’t lied and still remembered what she owed her, if she still felt nothing for Berg as before and was completely indifferent to Stalin out of stupidity, why not propose the following combination: Vera takes Berg, leaves Moscow with him, and leaves Stalin for her.