Dating Recipe

Author: Peng Jiuyang
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Publish Date: 2005-11-01
Features: "Are you a killer?" This was the sentence Ice said. Without resistance, she quietly stayed by my side; she was my lover, nestled between my slender fingers, close to my skin, burning everything for me, so natural. What remained in my heart was like a wound scratched by a thin piece of paper, initially nothing out of the ordinary. The sharp needle in my hand transformed into a rose dipped in poison, solitary and floating above the city. This time, it was real. Love Recipe is the sprite of the night. It stole my soul and tears. Again and again, I cried at night, in the stories I created, crying my own tears. Back then, I wasn’t lonely, just felt alone, mixed with youth, nostalgia, and longing, savoring solitude. The same night, I always stayed awake at the same time. Without tears or thoughts, I realized that crying in love was actually happiness. Then, I lost happiness. That moment was 1:21 AM. I believe love will always return, because humans are good at fantasizing, and no one can murder fantasy. Even when, I’d tell myself, as long as there are men and women in the world, there will be love. Thus, fantasy led me into a fairy-tale world. Fairy tales are not just for children; in the adult world, love fairy tales are beautiful, so beautiful that they make people cry again and again. Tears fell, watering a growing rose. Under the moonlight, the rose grew sharp thorns, piercing the lonely heart. Drops of blood slid down, falling into a transparent black world. Slowly, I understood that the downfall in fairy-tale worlds could also be very beautiful.