Why Did I Hit My Wife? - A First-Hand Account of Domestic Violence

Author: Mu Xiaozi et al
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Publish Date: 2005-04-01
Features: Three years of interviews with domestic violence survivors · Firsthand accounts of over 100 cases · A complete diagnosis of China's family ills · A book that exposes the sickness of love's voyage · An exhortation to social reconciliation
Yes, I am deeply humiliated. I struggled to free myself from the feeling of being harmed, only to discover the wild wolf-like potential within me that had always been there, just waiting for a long-delayed opportunity to awaken. Can there be joy in abuse? I believed it. I wanted her to hate me. When you love someone, you hope they love you back. Similarly, when you hate someone, you hope they hate you too, rather than as if you don’t exist. This strange mindset should be common to everyone.
My palm landed heavily on her cheek. How familiar that cheek was to me—I had once gently stroked it, passionately kissed it, and tenderly pinched it with pity. All the sweetness was violently torn away by my palm.
This is an oral record of a domestic violence survivor, featuring shocking social cases that expose the hidden depths of human emotions. It delves into the practice of "Go to a woman? Take your whip" in China.
"When the numbness in my fingertips reached my brain, I looked at my hand, lost for words. Her eyes were wide open, as if she were staring at a stranger who had just her home. The imprint of my slap was clearly visible on half of her face."
The momentary loss of control and absolute determination when turning fists on someone you love. Love and violence intertwined, full contact. Repression, pain, scars—these are being played out right beside you, or perhaps right in your own life.