Why Did I Hit My Wife? - A First-Hand Account of Domestic Violence

Author: Mu Xiaozi et al
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Publish Date: 2005-06-17
Features: Three-year-long interview records of domestic violence survivors · Firsthand accounts of over 100 cases · A complete diagnosis of China's family illnesses · A book that exposes the sickness of love's voyage · An admonition for social reconciliation
Yes, I have suffered much humiliation. I struggled to escape from the feeling of being harmed and discovered the wild wolf-like potential within me. It had always been there, just waiting for the right opportunity to awaken. Can abuse bring pleasure? I believed it. I wanted her to hate me. When you love someone, you hope they love you back. Similarly, when you hate someone, you hope they hate you too—not as if you didn’t exist. This strange mindset must be shared by everyone.
My palm landed heavily on her cheek. How familiar that cheek was to me! I had once caressed it gently, kissed it passionately, and pinched it tenderly with compassion. All the sweetness was violently torn away by my palm.
This is an oral record of a domestic violence survivor, featuring shocking social cases that expose the hidden depths of human emotions. It delves into the practice of "Go to a woman? Take your whip with you" in China.
"When the numbness in my fingertips reached my brain, I looked at my hand, lost for words. Her eyes were wide open, as if staring at a stranger who had just her home. The imprint of my slap was clearly visible on half of her face."
The momentary loss of control and absolute determination when striking someone you love—love intertwined with full contact. Repression, pain, and scars are unfolding right beside you, or perhaps right in your own life.