Harbinger of Spring (Literal Translation)

Author: Xiao Yi
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Publish Date: 2002-02-01
Features: After her mother committed suicide due to an unhappy marriage, the teenage Yan Hua plunged into illusion. Her suspicion about her mother's suicide, along with the changes in her body and the shifts in her emotions during her upbringing, shaped her dual nature: vulnerable on one side, and extremely cold on the other. During the formation of her wavering personality, she fell in love with her classmate Cheng Yepai. When she learned that Cheng Yepai loved her but had also had sexual relationships with other women, her emotions swung between extremes: she wanted to salvage the originally innocent relationship, yet she couldn't forgive her boyfriend's actions. This caused her already cold personality to become like stagnant water, completely ending the relationship.
After breaking up with Cheng Yepai, Yan Hua chose Zhou Zhigong to indulge in her stubborn nature—unwilling to compromise with men and not relying on emotions. Zhou Zhigong was a married man who tried to maintain his broken marriage through morality. Yan Hua's defiance toward men stemmed from her inherent weakness; she was still eagerly waiting for a sense of security after growing up without love. However, reality was cruel. While relying on Zhou Zhigong for a comfortable life, she still longed for the passionate love she had once shared with Cheng Yepai. As she abandoned her marital status, she became lonely, self-pitying, and self-abandoning due to the lack of security. Who could give her a safe love?